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+ Find my Podcast now under the following link: Click it!

+ Support me!:
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+ My latest book: FACEing eMOTIONs: Check it out!

+ My first novel: I present you with "Letters to the Government - I tried to spell rebellion...": Link to the book...

+ There are THREE more albums on bandcamp already and they will be available on streaming by the 10th of February 2023: alacTRONIC

+ My newest album is on bandcamp and YouTube and available on streaming by the 28th of January 2023: alacTRONIC

+ on the 16th of December my four newest albums will be released on the major music streaming services. Check them out already on bandcamp: A Link is a portal to another world...

+ If you click me, you're lost: This is me!

+ What the fuck?: Where am I going?

+ I finished writing with "Letters to the Government" and now all that is left is reading it once and correcting spelling mistakes. I will take my time, but aim for the end of the month to publish it. Stay tuned. The writing up has left me drained and I need to recharge before jumping into work again.

+ My newest album is available on bandcamp already with lyrics. It will be available on other streaming platforms probably by the 14th of October. It is called Truth Hurts and can be found here: Follow me!

+ I picked up the mic (Mike) and I sang you a few songs. If you dare to listen, I might clear up some wrongs. Check out my music if you like in the Music-Section. It is now available on most music platforms. Advertisement is a bitch, but in this way I find it alright: The Music-Section

+ I am currently working to finish my newest book "Letters to the Government". Check out the audiobook if you want to have a teaser...: This is Part 1 of 2

+ I wanted to make food and I wanted to film it. I also wanted to talk and here we are...: Come stand with ME in the kitchen

+ I am amazed. This is one of my most precious creations. Movie number whatnot is out: Escape into the forest

+ One night, one moment, one truth. I captured and you may indulge in it. My newest movie is out! Enjoy if you have a mind for it: You Cannot Safe Everybody

+ My newest movie has been recorded and uploaded and it is dealing with slacklining. Find it under the following link: I Slacklined out of HELL

+ I have been busy and as I have been busy I can present you with my newest movie, which you can find under the following link:
A Sunset

+ My newest album is called "Army of SMILES" and is available on Bandcamp already. You can find it on all major music distributors on the 16th of September: Army of SMILES

+ What you could call my second movie is out. I documented my creative process and released it as is: the BIRTH of CREATION

+ I have released my entire ART GALLERY on INstagram.

+ My first Movie has been released and is available on Odysee.com. Check out the "More"-section if you want to find out...(more): BarbarianLunatic_productions

+ Find me on Instagram: Instagram

+ I have started to make music and you can find my latest album album in the "More" section: BarbarianLunatic_records

+ My new German podcast has aired and will be bringing you weekly episodes every Monday at 4AM!
More at the bottom of the "Podcast"-section --> Podcast

+ My newest book is called "I never knew I was alone" and deals with the concept of being alone in a for me typical and yet novel way of presenting the subject. You can find it only on tredition.com under the following link: Click me!

+ Wow. It is still happening. Life is challenging me to live up to my full potential. The last couple of weeks, I was busy with learning, how one can manage to survive without psychedelics, coffee or sugar.

Currently I am working on my first novel. Stay tuned!

How is life in general? I do my own self-management. I try to cook something healthy every day. I make sure I am well nutritioned. I make sure I exercise adequately. I go for walks in the forest. I spend time in nature. I started doing light running exercises again. The most important thing is, that I take off my shoes in nature. I slackine when the weather is sunny. I sleep when I feel like it. I drink tea and I try to be nice to the people that I come into contact with.

This is my life at the moment. Pretty quiet, when compared with the recent months. A part of me enjoys it, while another part is still getting used to it. I have trouble to not see this way of living as boring at the moment. It is something new. It is exciting in a way, but different.

I have no idea where this is heading.


p.s. Corona is a lie, don't buy it. It is advertisement for the products of the pharmaceutical industry. This industry has no interest whatseoever to heal you, or to help you. If you want to heal, learn to help your self. Nature has all the answers you need. Your diet is most likely what makes you sick.


... nice of you to stumble into my website. There is much to discover, that much is certain.

My work is taking shape and I continue to reach new heights, without psychedelics this time, but through hard work and determination. My YouTube Channel and my Podcast have been planned for the entire year already.

Besides that I am currently trying new concepts in the writing of books. Besides my large book-projects, I throw in the occasional smaller one, where I can expirement more freely and set the tone for my next creation. At the moment this is something around the topic of induscing states of trance and what their purpose is, in a world that wants to be high on sugar and coffee, but wants to know nothing of actual healing.

Every day is a new challenge. Every day I am faced with the question: "What am I going to do today?". It is all that I can do at the moment. Move forward and relfect on the things that have happened in the past and in every second of every day. This is the matter, the very substance, of which my books have been made. Consciousness, channeled into a creative outlet, in the form of a book, a video, or a recording.

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Something Useful

“Discovering your own path, may be one of the hardest things in the world. As you continue to walk, you will begin to realise, that nobody else can do it for you. One day, you will look back at your life and you will be able to see, that the path did not change, YOU DID! ”

— Christopher Reusch in "Being in love"

Something True

“The beauty about language is, that you can say everything and nothing, depending on the person that listens or reads what was captured. ”

— Christopher Reusch

Books on the loose...

Here they are, my children. These are the words, the stories and the drawings that I have given birth to. I could say that I am the proud father of some very beautiful and plentifully helpful children. These books were designed and captured, to help you on your spiritual journey. It is their purpose to teach you something about emotions and practices that allow you to understand these better. One of the main emotions I have worked with, is fear, which is why the book is the most extensive one available thus far. It is also the most important one, as fear surrounds us at all times. Living in a society that uses fear, like no other emotion, to feed the beast that we call capitalism, further increased the need to be comfortable at all times, even in scary situations. Right now, humans like you and I are being pushed into a corner, in order to get vaccinated and beaten into submission, by those who think themselves wealthy and rich... wait: they are trying to confuse us again. Now they hammer us with warfare, to divert our attention away from the lies they were telling us about Corona.

If you feel like having a look and diving into one or some of them, feel free to click on the image below and you will be directed to the store...

Seeing them now, displayed on my website, gives me a certain sense of pride and accomplishment. Many moons have I spent in isolation, deep thought and reflection, to gather insights and understanding on the topic of fear and my emotions. One could, and I can most certainly, say that I was completely obsessed with understanding fear.
Understanding fear is not the end however. My goal was to summarise my findings and teach them to others, in an easy to understand way.

See for yourself...!

If you are interested in having a look at the first 20 or so pages of "The Book of Fear" (German or English), click one of the following links:

Once more I will direct you to my YouTube channel. I had way over 200 hundres videos online already, but decided to take them all down. YouTube is a highly censored platform and after I received my first strike I decided to play it save and take out all the previous content, where I may have talked about the lies behind the Cornona Virus-pandemic. This topic will be more openly discussed on my podcast and in my books.

What the fuck is wrong with you?
Like what don't you understand?
It is all there already!


August 1, 2022 - Blog

Godly Substances?

Hi! I have reposted this post as it was formerly in its own section. I needed space for the Music and added this entry to the Blog-Section instead. I would like to tell you that I have also written a...

June 1, 2022 - Blog

Was it love, or hate?

Let us beigin this post with one word: Duality.

Now there were already several words, but what I tried to mean, and what I meant, was to direct your attention, your focus onto this one...

May 14, 2022 - Stories

God's rational mind

Lifeless are my hands after creating the world. It seemed so empty. I was empty. I was so empty and I wanted to feel love. I wanted to feel alive. Love. 'What is love?'', I often wondered as I walked amongst the world...

May 14, 2022 - Poetry

A moment of fear

For me, one of the scariest thoughts in the world, is to never find true love. When I found it, I didn't know what to do with it, because I never learned what to do with my self. I loved and it hurt. I screamed...

April 20, 2022 - Blog

Laughing at Jesus

If somebody would ask you what or who Jesus is, then what would you say? Do you think of Jesus as the guy who got nailed to the cross? How come that the Christian Church...

January 21, 2022 - Blog

How to be alone without killing your self

Hi, my name is Christopher. Wait, did I say that already? Well, you probably know, because you are right here on my Website. First of all, I would like to share something with you. My past: Cricket, sorry I meant Click it...

October 18, 2021 - Blog


Here I sit in my bed, typing away. It is 1:33 in the morning and I cannot sleep. I am not even sure if it is, that I cannot sleep, but more that I do not want to sleep. These past couple of weeks feel...

October 18, 2021 - Stories

The Story of the Old Man

Once upon a time there was a man. An old man. Not as you imagine an old man, frail and rickety. The man in question was not a victim of the local orthodox medicine and therefore, wasn't 'treated' most...

October 7, 2021 - Poetry


I feel it, deep in my heart. The noose is being tightened. Good thing, I have learned to preserve my breath. Good thing, that I remember how to trust, when the fear gets too much for me to handle. God catches...

October 3, 2021 - Poetry

Pandemically speaking

Recently I feel like everything is getting worse. I have no idea what the future will bring, but I know one thing: I will not remain silent. What is happening worldwide is a scam, laid out by governments...

October 2, 2021 - Medicine

Godly substances?

Hi! I would like to announce, that between November 18, 2021 and January 06, 2022, I will be broadcasting my newest series "Godly Substances?". This series marks the beginning of Season 4 of my podcast...

October 1, 2021 - Poetry

Favours to ask:

Often I feel unable to say "No." when somebody asks me a favour. Quite recently I have a lot of stuff on my mind. I have things to do, even though I am at home. I have no time to do anyone any favours...

September 30, 2021 - Poetry

Responsive Responsibility

Responsibility can be like a conversation with yourself. There is nobody to answer to, than yourself. You are in charge and you are responsible for your own life. Start asking questions and you might...

September 28, 2021 - Poetry

By myself, rather than alone.

Recently I was faced a lot with myself. I spend quite some time alone and I am still learning to deal with it. It is not always easy to walk your own path and to learn not to be dependent on others. Letting...

September 27, 2021 - Blog

Being in love

Hello you! Yes, you! I mean you. Are you reading these lines? The last few weeks were quite interesting. I did this and I did that, but most of all I tried to figure out what I wanted to do. Each day I...

September 27, 2021 - Poetry

As I was waiting...

Sometimes I have the feeling I am waiting for something. Waiting for a call. Waiting for something to happen. Often I wonder whether I have a reason to wait or if I simply hope, that someone...

August 19, 2021 - Stories

Disciplined beyond belief

One day I would be an old man, filled with joy. All the things I had lived through would amount to one hell of an experience. How did I know that? I just did. Looking back now, I realise that everything...

August 10, 2021 - Stories

Fearful Planet - The Story to the podcast series

Hi. My name is Dave and I would like to tell you something about my life. I am not quite sure where to start, but as any good story it should probably start at a very important point of my...

August 9, 2021 - Poetry

He said he was sad

Today I walked through the park, leaves rustling, wind blowing and raindrops falling. These are the words that came out of me. They were inspired by something that I realised. Do not tell people what...

August 9, 2021 - Poetry

A child longing

Hello you. Yes I am talking to you. Sorry to disturb you while being busy with your phone. I thought this might be of interest to you. Stop wasting your life in that virtual world and start living...

March 30, 2021 - Poetry

Rooftop poetry

I remember one morning last year very vividly. I was sitting on top of a roof and simply observed what was happening below and around me. This is what I captured....

March 30, 2021 - Poetry

The bubble is growing

Some lessons are learned by leaving everything behind. Sometimes we need to jump in order to find new ground. This poem speaks of change and the courage to look for a world beyond the one we already know. Do you...

March 30, 2021 - Poetry

The Woman

Many moons ago I was slack-lining in the park. While I was busy with preparations a woman sat down on a bench. I started a conversation with her and for the first time in my life I understood what it means...

March 30, 2021 - Poetry

The healing itch

I would like to share a poem with you which I wrote on behalf of mother nature. Often we consider animals as disgusting or cruel, because we believe that they wish to harm us or make us sick. I myself do not see...

March 29, 2021 - Blog

The science of being left

Good morning dear reader. It is not my intention to hurt or cause suffering with these words. When you are ready to read these lines, you may be ready to address something inside of yourself. I strongly believe...

March 27, 2021 - Blog

Scientific obscurity

Do not be deceived. This article might not be what you will expect, but the message is worth reading into...

March 24, 2021 - Poetry

Letter to a loved one

Every choice and every decision was one step closer to you.
Every single time my heart was broken, it could grow a little bit.
So that in the end, I would not...

March 21, 2021 - Blog


This very moment belongs to you. Use it well. Use it to learn and to grow. Let me take you on another journey into realms of experience and perspective, of beauty and novelty. I have learned much in...

March 21, 2021 - Poetry

Healthy ignorance

What do most people, including me, have in common? When there is a problem, we do everything we can to ignore it. Even when our dear ones - or perfect strangers - point their fingers on something, we tell...

March 18, 2021 - Stories

The child that forgot about heaven

Have you ever wondered where children come from? No? Well, I did and I would like to tell you a story. A story so beautiful and sad, that you might cry. Or laugh. Or smile. A story which is perhaps...

March 16, 2021 - Stories

The SUBway

A work of fiction, created with my mind. Words flowing freely typed with those fingers of mine. I am thankful for the chance to be creative. I am grateful for the courage to show myself to...

March 16, 2021 - Poetry


A poem inspired by my current situation. I realised something which I needed to put into words. For so long have I looked for love and acceptance in others. I wanted to be understood. I wanted...

March 15, 2021 - Blog


There is one class of animals out there which for some reason I really enjoy. I cannot tell you exactly why, but I simply love reptiles. They are often named as stupid animals, that only work on reflex...

March 10, 2021 - Blog

Captured memories

To introduce this Blog I would first like to talk about memories. What are memories? Are they something that simply happened and is now over? Something from days past, soon to be forgotten? One thing I realised...

March 08, 2021 - Stories

The entanglement of human relations

Once upon a time there was a woman. A woman unlike any other that has ever lived. She lived her life in happiness, when she was happy. When she was sad, she was happy to live her life in sadness. Both seemed...


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